So.......

Tonight, I had family based. Just a family meeting, where we discussed getting back into my "interests" (piano and karate), and my dad said that I apprently "do anything to be different from us". Hey, dickhead, I'm just trying to find myself, and I want to make my own choices for a change, m'kay? And mom, I've changed. Stop telling everyone what I was like before. When will you two (my parents) finally accept that I'm changed, and I'm no longer the girl I was more than a year ago? Holy fuck. It annoys the shit out of me. Sorry. Language.

I finally went to the mall.
I bought:
-Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge- MCR (album)
-Girl By: Blake Nelson
-Rock Sound magazine
I went all fan-girly over the Rock Sound magazine, cause Fall Out Boy is almost all over in this magazine. Mmmm...Fall Out Boy.....

Currently, my dad is working out at the YMCA, my cat is playing with my shopping bags (from tonight) on my bed, and my mom and brother went to the grocery store. Yeah.

I'll continue to rant:
(from my emotional post on MJB):
Every since I was very young, (you may think this is stupid) he yelled at me when I had a toilet problem. And he brought other "bad" stuff I did into the argument/lecture/session too.And he used to hit me for it too. The belt. I thought it was very un-necessary. I mean, I had problems going to the bathroom, and he flipped every time. I think that was un-called for.Recently, my dad has been blowing up at me, and saying hurtfull stuff to me like I'm the "most meanest person", I "use people", my only purpose is to make things harder for the whole family, I'll prevent people from coming to our house (stupid snobby neighborhood I live in), and we got in one today. Me vs my dad.He was furious at me, cause I made my decision that I was atheist. I wasn't trying to offend them or anything, I swear. It's like I can't have my own opinion.Today, I came out in the argument about my sexuallity. I'm bisexual- leaning more towards the girls though. He started swearing at me, said this is "just a phase", and I was sexually abused by a family friend when I was eleven, and when I brought up that abuse that upset me so much that I looked at girls instead- he said to get over it, he didn't care, etc.He doesn't understand any of it, and he denies anything of what he said to me.He talks himself out of the mean stuff he says to me around my counselors. It's frustrating me.I feel like the only way i would please my father would be if I was dead. The whole family would be better off with out me.I'm at wits end, and I have no clue what I should. My counselors (from family based) sort of agree with me, but they think I'm overegarating cause my dad says what I said is untrue and sweettalks his way out of it. URGH!I only want this to stop!
^^^^On my MJB post, some members say that this is verbal abuse. I just want my dad to stop and maybe watch what he says to me. How should I do this?

When he's around my counselors and family based, he acts somewhat very nice. Although when I say something to confuse the counselors, he gives me this hard death look.