I was in a bad mood, went into a better mood, and now I'm back down.
I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This morning before I left for school, mom sat me down on the couch and started yelling at me cause one of my so-called friends told/called/contacted her, telling I was "engaging in lesbian-like behavior". FUCK OFF!!!!!!
Mom said that I was seen holding hands with another girl. I wasn't.
Maybe a little hug, but that was just what we all do.
And mom said if I was lesbian/bisexual, my family would be crushed.
So I left for school, cried the bus ride there, wrote some of a suicide note in my journal in Science class (no one read it nor saw it), sat through my other classes, cut my wrist only 1x in the school bathroom, cause other people were in the bathroom too before Health class.....
After lunch, I saw Stephani in the halls.
She really seems to like me, and I really like her.
I'm too scared to ask her out though.
I'll think I'll just stay single.
My life sucks because of my parents.
It's because of them, I cut myself. It's because of them, I thought of suicide.
Well, for today at least.
The school has NO RIGHT to invade on my privacy like this, do they?
I'm not even kidding, on Monday, I will curse out the guidance counselor. I KNOW she's been responsible for contacting my mom with all this information. Bitch deserves it. I thought I could trust her. But NO.
Stephani told me to text her. I think I'll be texting her all night. :)
I'm trying to stay alive for Stephy and my online friends.
I plan to stencil some t-shirts with band lyrics/logos and stuff and go to a thrift store or something.
Money's kinda tight at my house right now.
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Why should your parents care if your bi? Don't listen to them, they aren't the only people in the world. If they dont care about you enough to want you to be happy, then theyre idiots.
ReplyDeleteThat's idiotic. Honestly. The guidance counselor had NO RIGHT to call your parents and it's also kinda stupid of your mom to yell at you for stuff like that, I don't get what's the big deal about holding hands with a girl anyways...
ReplyDeleteim bi and i understand about your parents being all homophobic. its pretty fucked up. my friends get me though.
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