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I'm sorry for my haitus.
I may not be able to be online much this week, due to all my....almost failing grades (my parents take grades too seriously), and some other issues in my life I don't wish to discuss.
Rest assured though that I will be safe.
I don't have much time to be online that much right now.
I'll be safe though.
And I hope you all will be safe too.
Take care everyone.
-Keish

Something I've been trying to forget so hard that happened to me in the past was brought back to me at school today. I freaked out.I don't want this to happen ever again. I'm unsure how I'll ever feel safe again. :[

I'm off to burn myself a CD, organize my science notebook, and sleep.Not in the mood to talk right now. I'll be safe tonight though. I promise....

FUCK THE DAILY MAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so back in May 08, The Daily Mail called MCR, and MCR's fans a "cult" that promotes suicide and self-harm. Fucking ignorant! And a group of "goths" and "emo's" got together to protest against the daily mail.
Clicky VVVVV
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BWSFiC3FVoE

:)

Ok, so tonight, for the first time, I was on the phone....with Hanners!It was great! I finally could hear Hannah's voice! My phone anxiety wasn't as bad talking to her.

And then....my phone died...in the middle of everything.I hope she doesn't think I hung up on her. I'm sorry X 69787859 times if this worried her (you, Hannah). I wonder if I should call her back? She was on her dad's cell phone, and she only had 20 minutes.*worry*

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I'm still alive.
Math homework + neighbors being at my house (don't ask) + Romeo And Juliet in English
explain some of why I wasn't on tonight.
I'm safe though.
I hope you all are safe too.
<3

Happy pi day!
3.14!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi. I didn’t die yet, and I’m still alive and breathing….sort of.I’m losing my voice, and my voice squeaks alot, so I’m stuck just whispering. Oh well. I don’t talk much anyway.

My brother had his annoying friends at our house. They kept breaking into my room and looking through my shit (stuff). :/I still feel like shit, and I might say fuck it to school tomorrow.

But my cousin- (I’ll just call her C) is coming to my house to stay the weekend. w00t!She lives an hour and a half away. Near Coudersport.My mommy didn’t get home until 5:30ish today, cuz she was visiting my grandma all day. I don’t want to explain about her.

I’ve got a Spanish test tomorrow. But Spanish just comes naturally to me for some reason. I’m in Spanish 1 in school this year. I feel like cutting again. I’m unsure why………………………….

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Well I've done it.
I've given into peer pressure, and made a tumblr.
The damn thing's hard to figure out.
I probably won't post much on here.
This is where I am now:
http://alreadydead.tumblr.com/

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Tonight, my mom took us to the mall. My brother needed a hair cut, so I went into FYE and bought Thursday's new album "Common Existence". w00t!
Prepare for a summary by me of the album soon, m'kay?
I have to get back to my Social Studies terms. Bleh....

......May trigger

I haven't had much time 2 be online lately.
I feel like I have to keep alot of secrets away from my parents.
Family based program seems to be making some of this worse.
Tomorrow, I'm talking to the guidance counselor. *shakes
I went on a walk today and I took some pics before my camera died- batteries depleted. Bleh. I might post some pics on here.

Science is going easier for me, and my science teacher is being less of dick.
Johnathan has his little friends over to our house yesterday and today. It's annoying the shit out of me.
My knuckle is bleeding. idk why. My skin's just weird.

I sorta relapsed afterschool sadly. :(
I was freaking out (I don't really want 2 talk about it), and I grabbed a knife. I was afraid to push to deep, so i ended up with four very shallow cuts on my wrist. They're not that noticable though.

I'm just all paranoid right now.
About my parents finding out something about me and yelling at me about it.
Someone save meh.
I don't have time to be on AIM tonight. :(

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I feel very large for some reason. Maybe cuz I got my period. And I'm eatting chocolate like a mo-fo. You probably didnt want to know that.
I'm watching Emo protests against the Daily Mail of YouTube. The protestors get so much love from me, and I wish I could have protested to. But I live in a shitty town in Pennsylvania, where my school is over-loaded with preps, jocks, and the ones that do drugs. nothing against drugs, but they all frown down on me cuz I listen to MCR and stuff.
No one at my school seems to understand about MCR.
I want to switch to a new school.
I hate my school right now.
I've hated it all year actually. I sort of made friends with DeAdda- although she had a criminal record, my parents wouldn't let me hang out with her, and now she's in cyber school.
So now, I eat lunch with kids from my Emotional Support, but my parents refuse to let me do anything outside of school with them.

I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.