MAY TRIGGER

Well, this is MY blog, to post whatever the fxck I want!
Well.....
Yesterday afterschool, I cut myself 9 times with a pair of sissors.
Well, not all of them were cuts though.
Mom says my arms look nasty.
Fuck you then.
She doesn't have to like them BUT I DO. I love the scars it leaves.
But today, I wore rubber bands around my wrists to school. It's an alternative to Self Harm/cutting.
I feel very alone at school. My family are the only ones that love me.
None of my very few friends were at school today, and I think Tiffany's mad at me for some reason.
Was it cause I broke up with her?
idk.
So, now I'm having my own anti -semi formal.
I'm not going. :(
Any ideas what I could do?
*sighs
It's so hard. But at least I can free myself online, in writing, and in Photography/art.
I've been writing tons of poetry for English.
I might post some on here, maybe not.
Here's a link for a blog I use more often...
http://tornblackrose.livejournal.com

AND I'm stressing over my grades. Reports are soon, and all these counselors are pounding me with notices. Just knock it off already!
I FUCKING know.
You already told me once.
But now, you're calling my parents at home?!
WTF? Stay the fuck out of my family.
I know what I'm doing, damnit!
ARGH!